July 5, 2010

• Sometimes You Just Don’t Know

  It’s been a couple weeks since the date, my only date with the awesome girl. 

  “GIVE IT UP YO!” 

  Stop screaming at me!  I did alright, a week ago, when I didn’t hear back from her.  With first dates, you just can never know what the other side is really thinking or feeling. 

  On Saturday I threw my bag into my trunk after spending three hours at the coffeehouse.   As I’m doing that, my text messenger is blowin’ up.  It’s her. 

  My heart raced a little faster, wondering whether I should read further or not.  My brain is talking to me…  “Contact is good.  Contact could be bad.  No, contact is good, because we were already past the point of having to contact out of politeness.  It has to be good right?”

  It was all bad news.  And even in all bad, there can be good.  The news from her is that I won’t be seeing her again anytime soon.  I don’t even know if I’ll ever see her again.  But that’s not the bad news.  The bad news was that she fell off the earth because one of her grandparents was/is going through major health issues and it’s not looking good.  Before the grandparent thing developed, there were already some other temporary time consuming things that had popped up that she needed to take care of, so I can’t even begin to imagine the toll all of this is taking on her time and stresswise, let alone having to work in the midst of it.  Seriously, she had the shittiest month. 

  I was happy to hear back from her, even if it was brief.  She is very well-mannered girl so I did think it was a little strange when I didn’t hear back from her, she had me wondering what turned her off.  Was it the breath?  Do I look that much uglier than my pictures?  Should I have rented a Maybach?  In the text she told me she was looking forward to getting to know me better and I believe her.  Hopefully it’ll happen someday.  As for now, that day is not in sight and I’m perfectly okay with that.  I just hope the best for her family.   

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